January 13, 2010
Things Kids Say
We were sitting down at the table last night eating dinner. Clara looks at us and says "If we had one more baby, we'd have all the chairs full. There would be 4 kids and 2 grown-ups". The kids say stuff along these lines on a fairly regular basis, so we didn't think too much about it. Then her and Jacob start saying "We should have another baby", "Can we have another baby?", "I want a girl baby", "I want a brother, but a sister would be okay". Not surprising, Clara wants a sister and Jacob wants a brother. Husband and I looked at each other. Husband says "So you guys think Mommy should have another baby?" Both of them said an enthusiastic "Yes". Then that's all they could talk about. They wanted to know how soon, placed their orders for gender, etc. If only they knew and if only it were that easy. As I am heading toward the 5th period since the m/c, part of me wonders why I'm not pregnant again. It happened so easy in the past, 2 pregnancies were surprises, one of which happened while I was taking bcp, and the two we planned, happened the very next month I stopped bcp. The rational side of me understands it takes awhile for the body to get back to normal. I know that. But the irrational side of me wonders why I'm not pregnant. Several people I work with told me "I was pregnant within 3 months". The rational side of me knows it would be just fine if it was a few months down the road, as I have races I want to run this summer, and if I were to get pregnant now, I wouldn't be able to do that. But there's no reasoning with the irrational side, and hearing the kids say they want another baby (even though I don't think they really know what they are asking for) makes the irrational me want it more right now. Patience never has been a strong suit of mine. At least we know that when it does happen, Jacob and Clara will be happy.