January 13, 2010

Things Kids Say

We were sitting down at the table last night eating dinner. Clara looks at us and says "If we had one more baby, we'd have all the chairs full. There would be 4 kids and 2 grown-ups". The kids say stuff along these lines on a fairly regular basis, so we didn't think too much about it. Then her and Jacob start saying "We should have another baby", "Can we have another baby?", "I want a girl baby", "I want a brother, but a sister would be okay". Not surprising, Clara wants a sister and Jacob wants a brother. Husband and I looked at each other. Husband says "So you guys think Mommy should have another baby?" Both of them said an enthusiastic "Yes". Then that's all they could talk about. They wanted to know how soon, placed their orders for gender, etc. If only they knew and if only it were that easy. As I am heading toward the 5th period since the m/c, part of me wonders why I'm not pregnant again. It happened so easy in the past, 2 pregnancies were surprises, one of which happened while I was taking bcp, and the two we planned, happened the very next month I stopped bcp. The rational side of me understands it takes awhile for the body to get back to normal. I know that. But the irrational side of me wonders why I'm not pregnant. Several people I work with told me "I was pregnant within 3 months". The rational side of me knows it would be just fine if it was a few months down the road, as I have races I want to run this summer, and if I were to get pregnant now, I wouldn't be able to do that. But there's no reasoning with the irrational side, and hearing the kids say they want another baby (even though I don't think they really know what they are asking for) makes the irrational me want it more right now. Patience never has been a strong suit of mine. At least we know that when it does happen, Jacob and Clara will be happy.

6 comments:

Little Loves' Mama said...

I stumbled upon this blog because I like labor/delivery stories. I just wanted to say that I am very sorry for your loss.

I had an ectopic pregnancy for my first pregnancy and it took nine months after that to conceive my son. Those were some terrible long months, but if it hadn't worked out that way, I wouldn't have the beautiful child I do now. We conceived our second child easily, but we've been working on a third for ten months now. I'm not getting any younger and my patience is wearing thin. I just keep trying to remember that the right baby is waiting to be conceived at the right time, that third child who will round out our family perfectly.

My son also tells me that he's supposed to have three little sisters and one little brother. Although it would please him immensely if I had triplets, higher order multiples are the reason we're not using Clomid.

Best wishes.

Surrounded By Boys said...

I know how hard it is to be patient and how much more nervous you get as you get older, but hang in there. The next baby you conceive will be the perfect baby for your whole family.

Whoz Your Doula said...

Hi, I just stumbled here too. I am sorry about your loss.
Children are something else sometimes. All of our chairs are full here but, my children are patiently (not) awaiting me to get pregnant again with their new sister. At least they all agree on the gender.
Happy conceiving, I pray you journey well.

Laras Mama said...

That's funny! Reminds me of what I asked my mum one day as a child. "Mum should I have a pap smear?" After viewing one of the adverts on TV saying that all women need them. I was only about five!

Baby dust to you - I hope it happens soon. If you're too impatient, just remind yourself about all the yucky things about pregnancy like morning sickness and carrying a bag of cement in front of you!

However my baby girl is not even three months yet and I want another one. Going to be good and hold out till she's 1 though!

Good luck!

Karlee said...

I miscarried after having my first son and it took 9 months to get pregnant with my daughter. I thought something was seriously wrong and I finally went to the doctor about it. He put me on clomid. I kept waiting for my cycle to start so that I could start the miracle drug, and low and behold, I was already pregnant. I think I just had to give up trying...
I have 4 kids now...best of luck to you. I remember those long long months. It will happen.

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