Maybe I should retire now

I think I just finished the worst shift I have had in my entire nursing career. Yep, yep, I'm certain. Worst Shift Ever. The first 11.5 hours were fine. It all went to hell shortly after 6 a.m.What's funny is I had a feeling something bad would happen. I realized it had been a while since we had a IUFD, and what with Christmas around the corner, we were due. Last year on the same day, I remember one of my co-workers coming in my room (I was post-op c/s) and told me they were delivering a 23 weeker. Ironic. Anyway, a delivery of a stillborn sucks, but when it's a crash situation and mom's life is the one we're rushing to save, it sucks more. Everything happened so fast there wasn't time to process until it was all over. This part of the job never gets easier. People have often said "You must love that you get to rock and hold the babies all night". If only that were all it was. Here's a simple plea: don't use drugs while you are pregnant.Cocaine can cause your placenta to detach itself from your uterine wall. This is BAD if you haven't just delivered your baby. The outcome is not good. Please, for the sake of your baby and yourself. Just don't.